October 7, 2018
September 18, 2018
September 16, 2018
September 12, 2018
Cate had a hard thing happen one time because people made bad choices. I offered to go with her on a trip to do all the hard things but only in spirit because MONEY DOESN'T GROW ON TREES and what not. But in the course of the conversation, Cate and I decided that we would *theoretically* cope with the terrible things on our fake trip by journaling, talking about life and staring down the barrel of existential doom.
And sometimes for basically no reason. And sometimes for a reason, life feels like that. You just wake up staring down the barrel and it's all you can do to shove it aside and like, get out of bed.
And that was today for me.
August 16, 2018
August 11, 2018
Years ago, before the boy who recommended my favorite books married someone else, he told me to read this one over Christmas break. The main character was everything I view myself to be. And there are women of power, grace and pain. A beautiful scene where someone learns to love a child.
And tonight I watched the movie and I cried three times. It wouldn't have been as good without the book, but it was beautiful and moving and I wanted to text the boy. The one i always counted on my back burner. But I couldn't. And I didn't. And I thought.
Well isn't that the point?
Learning to love someone else when you realize the one before wasn't enough?